To Be Young, To Be In Paris

When I was young, I was a Hemingway enthusiast. At that time, I was unaware that, if I was going to admit to admiring the man, I would need to apologize for many aspects of the his life: his attitude to women, his hunting, fishing, running-of-the-bulls life style, his posing, his drinking, and, worst of all, the emotional havoc he wrecked on his family and others who loved him. I would learn, too, that I was expected to apologize for some of his later writings that didn't measure up to his brilliant early years. But, in those days, I was a teenager living on a farm in New England dreaming of traveling and writing and adventuring, and the author of "The Big Two-Hearted River" was my small god, larger than life and utterly infallible.

In this picture, I'm imitating one of my favorite pictures of Hemingway. In that photo, taken in Paris in the 1920's, he is standing in front of Sylvia Beach's book store, Shakespeare and Company. His head is heavily bandaged after a skylight fell on him badly lacerating his forehead. He is smirking that famous young-Hemingway smirk. It looks like a warm and fine day at a time when the city was home to the storied flowering of Lost Generation writers like Hemingway, Dos Possos, Stein, and Fitzgerald.

In the picture you see here, I'm standing in front of the new Shakespeare and Company Book Store doing my best to look like Hem (I was only half joking). The store is near the Seine and Notre Dame, a bit of a walk from the site of the original establishment. It's owned by the warmly eccentric cousin of a great poet whose name escapes me now. He sells his books, used and new, paperback and hard cover, at high prices to tourists eager to have his stamp of authenticity in the front cover. He also offers employment and funky, bookstore lodging to young, would-be expat writers who are in Paris on tragic-romantic walkabouts and like to imagine they are a bit down on their luck.

I had biked to Paris that summer from our home near Frankfurt, Germany. It was hot and dry and stifling in the city. There seemed to be no escaping the heat. I hung out in bookstores and lazed on the grass in the shade at the Luxembourg Gardens. I drank beer and ate roast chicken and french fries at sidewalk cafes like Le Select. My trip across Germany and France had taken six days and I was about to pack myself and my bicycle on a train back home. I had only a day to spend here. A shame of course, but this was just my first trip. I would be back. Like most beginning writers, I was struggling to get published. But one incredible day, ten years later, I would win an international writing competition in Paris and read my story, "The Rifle," at Brentano's Book Store. Then I would train to Paris, drink celebratory champagne, and be taken to dinner at at an upscale restaurant. I think I did pay a visit to Shakespeare and Company, bought a paperback copy of A Movable Feast, and had it stamped.

And that of course, is the real Hemingway legacy. Though he presented to the world as a deeply flawed and troubled man, he was a true artist, and as such he was brave and wise at a profoundly instinctive level. Today, eighty-some years after that famous picture was taken in front of Shakespeare and Company, he continues to inspire us to be full of ourselves and to live full of life. Rather than dismiss him outright, we can learn from his mistakes as well as his successes. As an older man, I'm still enthusiastic about Hemingway. For me, his best lesson has been this: If you want to be a writer, you must write and you must never quit. No matter what, you must never quit.

Sailing and Writing: Charting the Fair Adventure of Tomorrow

This is our home, our back yard--the marina at Sumay Cove on the island of Guam. Vatna, our Hans Christian 33 cutter, is off in the distance, third from the right. We moor Med style, stern to the seawall with bow lines, port and starboard, run out to mooring balls. We have new shower/head facilties with clothes washers and dryers and storage cages. The Cove is a safe harbor; that is, its a good place to be during typhoons. Just outside the entrance to the Cove is Apra Harbor and just outside the harbor is the big, blue Pacific--or, more precisely, the Phillipine Sea where the water is gin clear, the diving spectacular, the fishing excellent. As you can imagine, its a pretty nice place to live aboard and to write. We've been living here for over nine years and who can imagine leaving such a paradise?

But that's what I did. Just this morning. I spent a few hours helping a young friend of ours sort out his charts. He's leaving at the end of the month, sailing south to the Admiralties and Papua New Guinea and then Bali. As we looked over these maps of the sea, some first drawn in the 1800's by the Royal British Navy, others by Japanese surveys in the 1920's, as we studied the fabulous, incredibly remote, infinitely varied achipelegoes just South of Guam, we realized that the sooner we leave the better. I felt my palms sweat, my mouth go dry, and my heart run a bit wild--too many places to see, too many islands to sail among, too many adventures to be had. Let's go, lets go, lets go now.

And so it is with writing. I've spend the past five years in a writer's paradise, of sorts--writing fantasy. For years I wrote short stories, literary pieces, high-minded sketches of human folly, for publication in literary magazines. I won an international writing competition in Paris, was published in the Prague Review, and in small literary magazines in the United States. But the holy grail of writing, the publication of a successful literary novel, eluded me. What to do? The advice in the writers' magazines was to try genre fiction and look for a small, independant press. It's an easier market to crack.

I spent the next three years plugging away at a fantasy novel. At first I thought it would be for young adults, but as I wrote, I felt the plot and style moving across that border between Young Adult and simply fanatasy for all ages. The end result, The Eye of the Stallion: The Face in Amber, can do just that--go either way. I sent the first three chapters and a query letter out to seven publishers, big and small. I started receiving rejection letters within two weeks. Had they even read the sample chapters? Of course not. One rejection postcard was intended to hurt (I use postcards for my SASE's). It had X's and O's handwritten on it--"hugs and kisses from NYC" it said. I wonder what a person like that would be like at sea on a dark and stormy night.

So, after ten months, I had collected five rejections and nothing else. I wrote the whole thing off and was trying to figure out another strategy. But then one day I opened my mailbox and found a letter from a small press in Santa Fe--Crossquarter Publishing Group. They realized it had been a long time, they said, but they liked the strong human element in my writing and if the manuscript was still available, they would like to see it. I boxed it up and sent it to them. A month later, the next letter came: Yes, we would like to move ahead with publication. They included a contract, standard stuff, which I reviewed, signed, and mailed back. The Eye of the Stallion: The Face in Amber, became Book I in a fantasy trilogy. It was published in December of 2005.

Then I found I was on a roll. I loved writing this stuff. No rules, have fun, just develop great characters and be consistent. It took only a year to write the sequel and last week I was told that Book II, The Mirrors of Castaway Time, had also been accepted and will be released in August. I sent that manuscript to them last June. They are a small house and a slow house and that's all right with me. They receive fifteen hundred manuscripts a year and choose just eight for publication. I felt honored. As soon as I had sent off the second book, I got going on Book III, which I'm calling A Drop of Wizard's Blood. I'm in the home stretch on that one and should finish it in the next week or two. I'll spend the summer on the re-write. So, with luck, I have three books out there and that will be a satisfying feeling.

But then, who knows. I was studying nautical charts this morning, exploring possibilties for adventure that made my blood run fast. If you're lucky, the same will be true with writing. So many ideas, so many places to explore, so many places to drop the anchor and look around for a while. My wife, Terry, and I plan on sailing away from this fine paradise next summer. Will go adventuring in our boat, we will sail it halfway around the world, back to our retirement home on the Cheasapeake Bay. I plan on going adventuring in my mind, too, writing my way through mysterious, figurative islands I have never seen, daydreaming and weaving from those daydreams adventures that will parallel the ones the sea will offer me.

THE IDIOT: Struggling With a Dead, White (Russian), Male Writer On The Trans-Siberian Railroad

The Idiot: Mother Russia is famous for many things speakable and unspeakable, including the Mr. Stalin's Gulag, Mr. Lenin, excellent vodka, and lately, Mr. Putin. It's also the home of many millions of heavy smokers (very friendly), and a very long train ride. In June 2003, my wife and I began a journey to live out a long-held dream of mine (you'll notice I said mine, not necessarily hers): To ride the Trans-Siberian Railroad from one end of the line to the other, meanwhile, killing time (there was lots of it to kill) reading Mr. Dostoevsky's ponderous masterpiece about the Christ-like epileptic, Prince Myshkin. Here are some images from the trip (from top to bottom): Terry and I about to board the train in the Siberian city of Irkutsk, a typical Siberian farm in June, the city of Irkutsk itself, me eating peanut butter and crackers, drinking vodka, and watching Siberia go by; a view of our embarrassingly pleasant and bourgeois first-class cabin (second class passengers sleep four to a cabin, stacked up on each other); a smokey, smoked-fish market on Lake Baikal where, for reasons known only to them, newly weds still wearing gowns and tuxes, posed for pictures; passengers taking a sun-break during a stop; and, sealing a deal with a vendor selling meat-stuffed ( a Russian fellow passenger opined that it could perhaps be rat) rolls on the platform. Reading a great Russian writer while clanking and swaying and screeching across the vast wilderness that is most of Siberia was instructive. First, on the front cover of my edition of The Idiot (Modern Library Classics), there's a plug by the dead, white, brilliant, and tragic woman writer, Virginia Woolf. She says, "Nothing is outside Dostoevsky's province. Out of Shakespeare there is no more exciting reading." She is someone we can take seriously and so we must reconsider the post-modernist, feminist dismissal of the wisdom of deceased Caucasian male scribblers--all but Hemingway, one would assume, whose sins are manifestly unforgivable.

In any event, the trip took six days and six nights with a two day pause in the Siberian city of Irkutsk, situated close by Lake Baikal. Siberia, at least this Southern part of it, turned out not to be the desolate tundra of my National Geographic readings, but rather an endless land of forests and savanna, larch and birch trees, and small peasant farms pressed up against the tracks. Though it was mid-June, the crops had not yet sprouted and the gardens were all neat rows of carefully tilled and prepared gray soil. We saw few cars, some horses, and one motorcycle with a side car. The air was crisp and clear and the views from the speeding train window (I found myself pressing my nose up against the pane like a kid in front of a candy store) very fine. In some places, large tracts of woods were aflame and in fact, Irkutsk was under a pall of smoke for the entire time we were there. We were told it is an annual phenomenon brought on by the summer draught.

Sleeping was at first a problem. At regular intervals, the train's brakes shrieked, and then the train would slam against itself, jolting the dreamer awake. New passengers would board at each stop and their loud voices and cigarette smoke wafted in to us through and under the door. This was a problem the first night. By the middle of the second day, I realized that it didn't matter if we didn't sleep well at night because we could sleep any time we wanted to, our seat serving also as our berth. So long naps became de rigueur, usually soon after a lunch in the dining car washed down with red wine (we were generally the only customers in the dining car, the average Russian preferring to save money by buying food on the platforms during stops).

Six days without a shower was a concern. We couldn't easily wash our hair (hence the hat), and had to do with using a wash cloth and a bar of soap while standing up in the swaying bathroom. Then, on the train from Irkutsk to Moscow, glory be, there was a real, stand-up, stand-alone shower. Though the water was just a trickle, it was warm, and as far as I could tell, we were the only ones who used it.

If one is going to lose at chess, it may as well be to an attractive young Russian woman on the Trans-Siberian. Over confident after a couple of easy victories against a young Brit traveling alone (he said he had gotten his girlfriend pregnant so he dyed his hair blond, and headed for Siberia), and my wife (who later beat me without remorse), I took on the woman who was, if not exactly our guide, charged with making certain we got off the train as scheduled in Moscow and not in some Siberian logging camp. She was very bright, spoke excellent English, and earned $75 a month teaching at a college in Irkutsk. When, early on in the game, she took my queen in an effortless offensive, I prepared my tail for placing between my legs. Fortunately, she was as gracious in victory as she was charming in conversation.

Did I read the whole thing, finally, all of The Idiot? No. After all the expense of buying the book (it's an inch and three-quarters thick), stuffing it in my travel bag, and lugging it around the world, there was just too much to look at out the train's windows. After all, I could read Dostoevsky anytime, but I would only be witnessing Dostoevsky's Russia passing by once. I did make some progress, but now, four years later, the book still sits largely unread, on a bookshelf in my classroom. It was suggested later, and I guess I agree, that it would have been better to have explored the writings of some modern-day Russian authors while I moved across this conflicted nation that is struggling to emerge after the Cold War. Though we know, as writers, that Nastasya, Aglaia, and the awful Ganya are universal characters whose motives and emotions are bone-deep in all of us, they will have to wait until I am less distracted.

Keeping Alive an Ancient Art

This is a traditional Carolinian proa under full sail in Apra Harbor, Guam. I took this picture a few weeks ago from the bow of a small power boat.

My next book, once the last novel in the fantasy trilogy is finished this summer, will be about this--an adventure novel, maybe for young adults, and concerning the skill and courage it takes to sail a delicate craft such as this across hundreds--even thousands--of miles of open ocean using only the stars and wave patterns to navigate. It was in such vessels that the original island peoples spread themselves across the Pacific from Southeast Asia three or four thousand years ago.

This proa, or canoe, is made pretty much from traditional materials: a hand-hewn breadfruit log for the hull and no nails, screws, or bolts. Instead, it is lashed and sewn together using tuna cord. Sailing a proa for days or weeks at a time between far-flung islands requires a navigator of consumate skill and the ability to tolerate great discomfort and fatigue. In this photograph, the man on the stern steering the proa is Manny Sikau, a seventh generation master navigator from Puluwat. His father, in fact, built this canoe. As a thirteen year old boy, Manny once sailed a canoe similar to this from Puluwat to Guam, a distance of some five hundred miles, with his grandfather. Again, they found their way without a compass, without charts, without a sextant. There are things in this world that people accomplish that defy belief and such voyages must be included in that category.

Book II is Ready

It looks like the second book in the Eye of the Stallion trilogy, The Mirrors of Castaway Time, will be coming out soon. The publisher plans on having manuscript proofs and cover art ready in August and then a date for the actual publication can be set.

So what is The Mirrors of Castaway Time all about? It's a fantasy, of course, the sequel to the first, but it will stand alone as a story if you haven't read Book I. You'll find my willful, stubborn, warrior-heroine, Sonoia is still conflicted by her love for the dark and dashing Dag-gar, while Dag-gar cooks up a black-magic, Time-twisted plot to gain absolute possession of her wild soul. Meanwhile, the love battle between these two "small gods" has "upset the applecart of Time," as the eccentric old wizard Scraps would say. This has released into the world an implacable evil bent on destroying life simply because it lives--and it is doing it all by turning the fabric of Time inside out with mirrors--lots of mirrors (Have you ever held two mirrors up so they face each other and looked inside of them? You'll see what I mean.). There is also the wise and ancient sorceress, Mother Mar, and Sol, her young student in the art and science of herbal remedies and life. Mar sends the youthful Sol out into the world with the sad-faced donkey, Admiral Penance, to try to patch things up between Sonoria and Dag-gar and thus save the world. Poor innocent Sol--he soon finds himself caught up in dangers and adventures he could never have imagined including having to try to bring a badly wounded Dag-gar back from the brink of death.

It's a complex, fast paced book and the ending even surprised me. So, keep checking back here to see what's happening with it and I'll keep you updated.

Getting Ready for a Typhoon

It seemed to develop quickly. A few days ago, there was nothing, and now there is a storm developing and heading for us--tropical storm Kong Rey (where did that name come from?) It's predicted to grow into a typhoon sometime today before its closest approach to Guam tonight and tomorrow.

Because we live on a boat, people often ask Terry and I what do we do during storms. So now we're doing it. We spent yesterday, all day Sunday, getting the boat ready. Off come the sails which involves taking the big jib off the roller furling system on the forestay and getting the mainsail off the mast and boom. This takes a while and is a lot of work. The sails are balled up, tied into an awkward package with a line, and then swung off the boat using the main halyard. Then we take them to a grassy spot and fold them up properly and put them into storage.

Next, the one-inch storm lines need to be checked and the chaffing gear adjusted. I had to make a new, one-inch storm line for the port stern quarter which involves cutting off the old rusted shackle with a grinder and splicing a new thimble into the line and putting it all together with a new shackle.

The bimini and dodger come off, the sea cocks are closed, the shore power turned off and the power cables disconnected and brought ashore. The refrigerator is turned off and everything removed and either thrown away or brought with us to the friend's house where we will be staying.

Right now, I'm in my classroom at school. The island is scheduled to go into Typhoon Condition 2 at 2:00 this afternoon and we have been told we have to stay here until 11:15 a.m. We still have a few things to do like take the air conditioner off the main hatch and put it in the back of my truck and pull the boat out from the seawall a little more. Then, on the way to our friend's house, we'll stop at the store and stock up on typhoon party supplies. The weather man tells us that tonight and tomorrow will be interesting so we need to be ready.

Writing On A Boat: Developing Characters, Navigating Plots, and Rolling with the Sea

This is what it looks like when I write--at least to my wife and our cats. The Sailor@60 in his place, trying to focus on the characters/plot and the music of the prose while Terry shuffles and clanks in the galley and the cats wail to go out or to come in. To my right in this picture is the little navigation/chart table. Inside are all sorts of navigation-related stuff like dividers, pencils, protractors, parallel rulers, erasers, instant glue, staplers, star charts--it's turned into a catch-all, I'm afraid. Above it, on the bulkhead is a weather fax and a single-sideband radio (SSB--I'm a General Class HAM). I installed a splitter and can use the SSB's antenna for the fax. There are also a few marine GPS's lying around in there. But the $2000 sextant is safely stored in my classroom at school. Don't really think I'll ever have to use it other than for the challenge of it.

All in all, this a great place to create books. In this picture, I really was writing. I was on page 211 in The Time Drifters, the 3rd book in The Eye of the Stallion trilogy. Usually I'm in this spot on Saturday and Sunday mornings by 6:30. Terry and cats are still asleep in the big pullman berth that is right across from the nav table. The morning light comes in through the portholes, the coffee maker works its magic and fills the boat with that wonderful aroma. The boat is usually rocking, sometimes a little, sometimes a lot, depending on the weather. I've written three or four books right here, on this spot. Don't know what I'll do when I have to move off and live in a house. Guess we'll adjust.